enough

well hey... didnt expect myself to post here still
but i'm here only to whine and complain this time, so tune out if you want.
who or what am i going to whine about? My brother. the little one, not my best friend. Just thinking about him irks me. this is the kind of time, when i wondered why i prayed for a brother when i was a kid. but hell does heaven have a sense of perverted humour, if it even exists. he's exactly the way i asked him to... and exactly the way i didnt ask, e.g. i forgot quiet, nice, obedient.

*sigh*

the immortal words of Koda the Bear, "I've always wanted a brother." seems to apply to me. i've always wanted a BIG brother dammit, not a little one. that was impulse. a big bro that protects me from the disapproving stares of my parents. one that teaches me the ways of the world. Maybe i found one already, i dont know... he's just my friend, and i dont really want to push the "Big Brother" title on him. i aknowledge he has a life...

i guess... i dont need to go on... so cya
(update: no more flash for me.... maybe after i start school me urge to learn would return)