A Page from the Book of My Life

Under Construction

2008-02-04T03:31:00.000+08:00

So I thought I should get rid of the "angry post" before someone from the Singapore equivalent of Homeland Security (that is, anyone with an impulsive need to complain to authority) comes and bang on my door. People have been put in jail for lesser, after all.

Anyway, life's been extremely bland, what with "work" and all. Things have suddenly cooled down in the office after that surge of publishing and sharepoint related work, leading to boredom that lead me to the tip of insanity. I marvel at what my mind conjures during such periods of inactivity. My friends sometimes ask me how I come up with some of the story concepts for stuff like animations and games. The answer is actually pretty simple. My mind dreams up fantastic stuff when left on its own.

Gonna get me a new power unit to replace my computer's dying one. Does anyone have a good recommendation? My budget's between S$100 to S$150. Currently looking at Coolermaster's 550w.

Final note: building a new layout for the site. Blogger's relatively new layout function is pretty cool, but its a pain in the ass to customize, what with the myriad of rules you have to follow. Expect the revamp on the weekend after CNY.

It may be unavoidable, but it doesn't mean I have to like it

2008-01-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

The title says it all. Its basically my attitude to National Service.

Not that any foreigners (or anyone for that matter) reads this blog, but in Singapore all boys once he passes age 16 and graduate from secondary schooling must go through 2 years of National Service in the Singapore Armed Forces. He can defer the thing for a few years for tertiary schooling, but after that must enlist. Must, Mandatory, by Law.

To many of previous generations it is a tenet of Singapore society. One of the pillars that uphold what being a Singaporean is about, a sense of pride, a rite of manhood. In my 19-soon-to-be-20 year old eyes, though, this is nothing but an utter waste of two years of my precious life. I have no doubts it'll teach me survival skills, dicipline, and all sorts of other skills that would prove completly and utterly useless in life.

2 years. Imagine what can i do within them? I can get a degree. I can get a job that pays around 2k a month. I can get an advanced diploma in game development, while enhancing my portfolio, in preperation for my entrance into the game development industry. Instead, I am being forced into serving into serving National Service, where I am paid less then a part-time worker cleaning the floors in the arcade underneath Parco Bugis Junction, do weather all kinds of shit my superior can throw at me.

Sure, my dad, uncles and even my colleagues at the company where I am interned right now says we are much more fortunate then them, with all the new facilities and catered food and all the shiny stuff. But to me, being forced to serve NS is simply so .. so... utterly farked up that it cancels any perks that stem from it. Who cares I'm wearing a better boot? who cares that my food in there will be chicken rice? I'm being pressed to enlist in the army of a country i dont give a rats ass about. For a guy who values FREEDOM as much as me, this is hell. "Adopt a positive attitude"? Your robbing us blind through GST and ERP and taxes, then you take 2 years off my life? I'll adopt a positive attitude when i have the launch codes for some nukes on ICBMs that i can use to wipe the smug faces off you damn politicians.

... sorry about this post. had to get it off me.

...

fuck you Singapore.

A test of will and endurance.

2008-01-10T15:22:00.000+08:00

Thats what internship is about.
The eternal fight against boredom and sleep. i swear, it doesn't get much worse then this. (i hope National Service proves me wrong)
Blogging in the office is not exactly the right thing to do, but i'm trying to keep myself awake here, so taking 5-10 mins off to do this doesn't seem too bad.

Anyway so yea, been busy this week. Finally too. Although working on testing and wikis and Sharepoint is not my idea of fun work but I guess i can't be picky when thats pretty much all I can do in a work environment that doesn't use tools i'm familiar with. They use C#, .NET and Flash while i use Java, C++ and 3d. Figures.

I've finally just got myself the Freedom Gundam model kit i've been ranting on about. Will post more about it once i start building and taking some pictures. Hope to paint it after i get the next injection of cash. Cant spend anymore right now, muneys not gonna last if I keep splurging. Hope to build a good looking Diorama involving Eva01 versus Freedom evantually.

Well thats it. Back to work!

edit: I just realized this is my first post for the new year! A little slow from all the computer work and a good lunch heehee. Anyway, I wish any readers the best for 2008!

its hard to overstate my satisfaction~

2008-01-05T02:09:00.000+08:00

i guess not everyone who reads it will 'get' the title. oh well. Portal

What am I so satisfied you ask? I passed my Basic Theory Test for Driving XD.

...

I can hear the derisive snorts already. I guess for some of you it was a breeze, after all, all you had to do was remember all the facts from the book right? Well its not as easy for me as it is for some of you. My brain basically rejects whatever I try to cram forcibly inside it. Luckily, there are trial question websites out there (i didn't have the wisdom to get the question book...), that let me learn thru trial and error. Now thats an effective learning tool. Stupid book. =P

So yea, thats stage one for driving done, another half a dozen more.

In other news...

Remember that cube i got? Look what i did:

Okay, so maybe buying the cube wasn't the brightest idea i had. I'm getting sheets the first chance i get. Meanwhile, i'll busy myself with a no-grade Gundam i just got to practice painting on. Hope that experiment works better then this one =/

I must be crazy...

2008-01-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

When i started out doing the Eva, I thought i'll just fix it up and do some panel lines... now i'm thinking about painting it and creating a sort of display for it. Will this interest flare up like the Sun or will it sputter out like all the other short lived hobbies i had over my 19 years of life? Time will tell.

Anyway:

I went and got myself a styrofoam cube to play around with, plus some sandpaper for both the foam and future model kits (i'm not gonna try pulling apart the Eva again now.. its loose as it is...), plus an ULTRASMALL paintbrush with a brand new palette. yay.

On non-modelkit news, my project at work launched! Even though its been completed for awhile now i felt a huge sigh of relief as my boss thought its good enough to launch, so its a wieght off my back. Now I can concentrate on working with Phase 2. I do wish the company I'm working at does some stuff in Java or C++. Its fustrating to be trained in all those skills like programming and modelling, only to not be able to use them in this oh-so-relevant (NOT!) attachment. Not that i resent the company, but still, this would be the answer to why I look so bored at work, boss. After working on a game and a CG animation (however crappy it is), working on sharepoint is like being forced to play pacman after experiencing Mario...

I think i've broken the ice between my colleagues (wait.. are they colleagues? =/ but i'm only an intern!) after all these weeks. At least I can converse with them and joke semi-normally. What can I say I'm a shy.. make that really shy kid. *laughs* oh well.

Taking my Basic Theory Test for driving this Friday. I know this is supposed to be really easy, but i can't help but feel nervous. My brain always rebels when I try to cram information in it through memorising. bleh. I guess I can only wait and see and hope and dream and etc etc....

Thats all for today I guess? Oh yea, almost forgot. Gonna introduce a new part into my posts from today on :

Link of the Day! ~ http://www.armorama.com/ A delicious wesite chock full of beautifully crafed and painted Tanks, Planes, and Ships. Includes lots of useful tutorials and stuff for those interested =D

Signing off, Souledgar~

Eva 01 , Continued

2007-12-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

Well! That didn't take as long as i expected... but then considering i took almost 12 hours to make assemble and paint the details without spray paiting, i guess i took longer then average?
Experimented with paint, and i guess the results are not too bad... the reds studs you see on his chest are painted red, then outlined with my black technical pen.

Some other extra things i did was the standard panel lines...i expected alot more, but since the Eva is more organic then a Gundam this is logical i guess. His left hand breaks easily, gonna glue the parts soon, but for now i'm leaving it like this after the 6th time it broke. =.=

The mess on the floor after paint and final assembly. heehee. As I type its still there... lazy to clean up... but i have to later =P

Eva, from a different angle. Sorry about the quality my phone hates me.

Thats it for tonight i guess... =)
look below for a review of the model kit.

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Review: Neon Genesis Evangelion - Eva Unit 01 (Movie-Version) Model Kit, High Grade

Grading: B-

Since its my first model kit i assembled myself, this grading might be a little inaccurate. I some parts extremely difficult to separate from the sprues. Its not uniform, so i don't thing this is intended. Secondly some parts quite easily fall apart: the hands, and the torso of the unit easily separates when posing... makes posing a pain. Finally, the placement of some of the sprue attachments are questionable. Quite a few of the attached parts to the sprue were placed at extremely obvious positions. Not pretty.

Other then those quibbles, i'm happy with the model kit. Some or all of those problems might just be my noob-ness, maybe i'll redo the thing sometime in the future? The thing itself is realistic, and detailed, and extremely posable. (exception: arm. only between 90 and 50 degrees =/)

Evangelion Unit-01 (Test Type)

2007-12-30T01:53:00.000+08:00

I GOT ME AN EVA!

Hee... I just got my pay (or allowance, whatever) last week you see, so I decided to splurge some. So... I decided to get me a model kit. Ever since I was a kid i loved big machines, so i really loved model kits. When i was like 6 my uncle from HK bought me a Gundam model kit, and within a year it was missing a head. =/ Oh well 6 is below minimum age anyway (~>.>)~.

So I decided that yea, I want a Gundam, so I went to Sunshine Plaza which is right next to my workplace, and scouted the place out. To my horror the shop owner told me the model i wanted (Freedom, Master Grade) won't arrive till next month. *sigh*. I can't control myself much, so i bought an alternative, Eva-01 "Movie Version".

*looks happily at pic* Yea, I like it. I spent a few hours today and yesterday working on it, and i'm halfway through now:

So here's my half built Unit01, with its waist and legs missing. Its sitting on my mom's sago... er... pot?

His chain gun! I want to watch the movie just to see it use this bad ass looking thing. I noticed after taking the pic that i was holding it upside down, but what the hell. =P

Since this is my first model, i won't paint the whole thing, but i will apply details and panel lines. It kinda looks a little odd with some of its details missing.. like red studs and black lines....

I'll post more pics when i've finished it.

Also, I got Eternal Sonata for the Xbox 360. I love what its shown me so far. Will post review after finishing. Cancelled Orange Box purchase, figured i'll be kept busy between building the Eva and its display, plus Eternal Sonata.

Well thats all for today's post. I think this is my first time posting pics? not counting that silly comic i posted last time of course. Night ~

SYSTEM RESTART

2007-12-28T17:52:00.000+08:00

LOL @ myself.
I said i would continue this blog didn't I? I think i remember something about a japan diary. well scratch all of that, since my old layout literally died. ripway decided i wasnt worth their 30mb and booted all those pictures to data hell.

But then i told myself i would like some place to keep my opinions on various stuff, and record my past, so i'm restarting the blog, hopefully for more then this one post this time. it'll be my memoirs, of a sort. Maybe i'll grow up, and if Blogger is still around 20 years later, i'll show this to my kids and we'll all have a laugh at how retro and dumb i was when i was ... 20 years younger.

So yea... i'm on my final semester in polytechnic now. National Service less then a year, and to tell the truth i am terrified. I don't know why i am so scared, or what am i afraid of, but i just am. Guess its my "phobia-of-the-unknown" at work again. Also, feeling the hate. Wasting 2 years of my life serving a country i feel complete no patriotic sense for is simply not my way of spending my time. *sigh* What can i do? Its a choice between spending 2 years learning how to fight an imaginary future war, and spending 2 years rotting in military jail. Not much of a choice, is it.

Thats it for the first post of a new age for this blog. Not much, full of complaints and a meaningless rant at a power i can't shake a stick at, but its a start. I'm gonna get me a Gundam model pretty soon, so maybe my next few posts will be about that. Next up, Portal... see you.

Japan Journals Day 1

2006-12-31T15:23:00.000+08:00

... I cant believe i haven't posted in this blog since July -.-. Ok, so i've been negligent, but lately there wasn't anything to post about, except mundane, normal stuff that probably nobody wants to hear. Anyway, during the holidays, i went to... JAPAN! the land of the rising ... sun? I went in winter, so the sun didnt really do anything except make my skin feel strange from the mix of hot sun and cold winds.

So whats this post about? Its to announce that i have posted part 1 of the 4 part Journal i made in Japan. It documents my findings, feelings, and adventures while being a ninja running around chasing rabbits. Just click the Japan link to go to the contents page. The rest of the Journal will be uploaded soonish~ yoroshiku!

<=== its there, you just have to look for it

OH, and Happy New Year to anyone who reads this!

>.>

2006-05-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

doom doom doom... is anyone still reading this? lol.

The week has gone by amazingly smoothly. So smooth in fact that i suspect the next will be horrible -.-. My project site went up without a hitch, work is on schedule, and the C++ book has a confirmed date. (about goddamn time...) Even my new deck's behaving the way i thought it would. So ya, everything has gone pretty damn well this week...

I got "The Da Vinci Code". How is it? intrigueing. it has made me go on at least 3 Wikipedia sprees already. did you know that "The Last Supper" by DaVinci (which is supposed to show 13 diciples of Jesus) included a woman? and there are countless "M"s in all of Art history? or 1.618 is known as the "Golden Proportion"? zuh. Interesting book

Anyway thats it. Short, i know, but i'm a little... busy ;) See ya around

ah! school!

2006-04-29T13:09:00.000+08:00

eep! *sigh* School's started, obviously that means more work less play. Our timetables are horrible, these ugly gigantic gaps between classes opening up like the maw of some great ancient dinosaur, just waiting to swallow us up in its endless chasm of boredom. -.-

So this past 2 weeks is busier then most, in a way i dun't like to describe, what with all the project stuff, and other work. This is Year 2, so apparently the tutors decided not to "spoon-feed" us , which resulted in the simple but complicated matter of figuring out where our tutorials and practicals are, whereas last year, they printed it out for us, included in the lecture notes.

Pretty dissapointed in the project. I thought it'll be some sort of free-style work, with proper planning and stuff, without restrictions to what we have to do (except for consulting the tutor as to whether the plan is ridiculous). *sigh* no, our project entails us to ... what? make a Library System, and somehow innovate on such a boring system. What hasn't the National Library done? bleh, i was hoping to make a game.

Pretty much finalized the deck i'm playing. Magic is a way to pass time in the above mentioned "chasms of boredom", so i had to make something... interesting. Boros Deck Wins, in a multiplayer environment, is pretty interesting =P. wish i had more Lightning Helixes tho =(

its crashing around us!

2006-04-08T00:51:00.000+08:00

looks like the new hosting i got can support the day to day downloading of the images (though its only a few, they're quite large =/) still working on the left navigation.. just cant get it to look right! I might just take the image map down and just go with text links -.-

okays, this week went pretty exciting, or at least the end of it. got myself Oblivion and started screwing around to squeeze every single bit of power out of my PC. turns out it can run it pretty well if everything was set to low. i refuse to turn down the view distances (imagine looking at sentosa, then imagine it suddenly vanishing as if it never existed) so my frame rates stutter when i go out of a city. but indoors, as long as theres no friggin huge light source creating hundreds of shadows (fuk the Mage's Guild), i do a fine 25-35 fps :).

school starts in a week, and.. i still cant get my timetable... whats up with that!? i cant get my notes without my timetables! more importantly, i cant play with C++ without my notes! i'm such a geek. :P

new design =D

2006-04-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

yay! another design update in a long long time. Please post your comments on my tagboard ^^. I'm happy with the overall look, black and white simplicity (dunno.. i like dual color sites more then flashy rainbows) but the navigation column on the right needs some reworking =/ it feels.. I dunno.. too small? I'll work something out in the coming week.

Anyway, i've got 2 new games, GalCiv II and Freelancer. GalCiv is a very very interesting science fic Turn Based strategy game, though it spends too much time pressing the turn button to really hook me. Freelancer is a Sci-Fi simulator/rpg. I like it alot, and the campaign keeps you on your toes. The only complaint i have is that there are no Capital ships for me to fly. boo. I wanna pilot something the size of a Star Destroyer. (You can in EVE, but i cant support monthlies.)

As for how my life is now since the last post, its pretty good, considering i just went for Ice Age 2 this afternoon with some friends. My unstable pocket money is getting on my nerves tho, and my parents keep pestering me not to stay at home all day. I need money for travel people >_<. Some people will say i should feel lucky i even HAVE pocket money, but heck its really irritating. Been reading some books on C++ lately, but turns out everything just looks so similar to Java. I'm stuck on "pointers" though, can someone msg and explain what in the world that is? Thanks =D. I basically get how to use them, i just dont get the point of using it. lols

I'm pretty hyped about starting school again, Stage 2 sounds way more fun then Stage 1 was, especially in terms of projects =D. Do hope i get good teamates this year.

Ah well... looks like i've ranted quite a bit. Its 1.50 am on my PC clock, really should get to sleep. Cya all ^^ (btw Ying2: that YouTube hookup on your site? *awesome* =])

blehhhhhh

2006-02-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

er... how long is it since i last posted ? i think at least 1/2 a year. oh well, this post is mainly a whine post, so feel free to skip it, if theres ANYONE reading the blog at all now (i think people stumble onto the blog through Naruto searches or something... great i just made it worse).

Anyway, i just had to let it out... just got complained at by my mum for buying one measly FullMetal Alchemiest manga... is 7 every few months reaally that much? she says she would rather i buy some non-pirated cds.. what kind of cds can 7 bucks give you? 7 bucks can barely get you pirated ones -.- lame. Just for the random police that came here through a "pirated" search, no i dont buy any... kinda impossible to find any shops selling them near my area anyway.

bleh.

arrest Jack

2005-10-15T21:45:00.000+08:00

ok.. not-so-recently state attorney Jack Thompson and Hillary Clinton pushed for the renaming of GTA:san andreas from an "M for Mature" to "AO: Adults Only" (which is, 1 year's difference btw)

alright. in light of the recent arrest of 2 Singaporeans for speaking against the Malay community, i would like to use this opportunity to call for an arrest for Jack, for harrassment (of ms Reno) and for publicly insulting quite a large number of people (for e.g. call all gamers drug addicts)

he also had this to say of Islam:

In an interview with the Sun-Sentinel, Thompson expressed his views on Islam [29][30][31][32]:
"The Bible doesn't promote killing innocent people," Thompson said. "Grand Theft Auto does. Islam does.""Islam promotes the killing of innocent people," Thompson said. "The Quran requires the infidel, whether Jew or Christian, to be killed. … That's a core essence of the religion. … Muhammad was a pirate who killed infidels and who advocated the killing of infidels. Not a nice guy. Osama bin Laden is in keeping with his fine tradition."

all of which is untrue, unless i am horribly mistaken about the Muslim religion. So, our dear Jack is a jerk, rascist and insults anyone who disagrees with him. All of which is more then enough to put him behind bars in Singapore, no?

i would like to point out that the above is taken from a Wikipedia post: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jack_Thompson_(attorney)
you can check it out if you want a full account of his insanity

of the internet, and Naruto

2005-10-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

have you guys heard? In the US thousands suddenly find themselves unable to connect to many of the websites of the internet yesterday. It may not matter to us in Singapore yet, but such things *may* become more common as time wears on. Heres the situation: 2 big companies, CogentCo. and Level3 in the US are having a row right now, and Level3 (imho, childishly) partitioned its part of the internet away from CC. So now customers of the 2 cant connect to each other.

We may not know it (i didnt until i read a recent article), but the Internet's backbone is made up of a few large companies providing net bandwith. I do hope this kind of thing doesnt spread to the extent where the Internet is broken into fragments and partitions, only to be connected on the whims of companies. this is the kind of time where i feel a super-sized coorparation (such as, microsoft) taking over the internet is best for the survival of the web.

on a side not, the latest manga of Naruto totally rawks. even tho theres not much action =3

tasugare yori akaki mono....

2005-09-25T15:33:00.000+08:00

woot exams are over... waiting for the results of this year's work now. I am 80% sure i'll fail maths and have to take a supplementary paper (hopefully i get more then 35%... but shouldnt be a problem looking at how my ICA is ok) the rest i'm reasonably secure i can score, and maybe even score well.

been bored lately, since exams are over we at NYP-IT are hovering in between semester and holidays. i've started trying Morrowind again, and, like the last time i delved into that world its starting to get dull. Something of note, i've actually finished all 3 series of Slayers and currently getting hold of the series myself. looking forward to watching the OVAs and movies **stares at Xelloss with a greedy eye... heh heh**

oh and i found another comic i like alot... Sinfest. hmm if you are a christian and cannot stand a little blasphemous humor, dont visit. looking to start an online MMO, City of Heroes or World of Warcraft, even Eve Online, if i figure out how to sign up (there doesnt seem to be a "sign up" button...)

my new layout is underconstruction and will be put up as soon as i'm satisfies with it, till then, take a look at my newest creation: the dvd cover for my Slayers Try

**oops, ripway currently is experiencing a problem while moving servers. will post pic as soon as they deal with it**

sore wa... himitsu desu!

2005-09-04T13:41:00.000+08:00

oooohhhh hohohohoohoho....
yo everyone long time no post. lol. things have been really hectic and really interesting lately, oh well, where do i start? okok i know, i'll start with LINA INVERSE. heehee. i'm an official fanboy of an anime now. lets just say i started playing the Warcraft map DoTA, and became fascinated with the one and only LINA INVERSE. She's from a relatively old anime called Slayers. a comprehensive webbie can be found here. suffice to say she's a really powerful sorceress who can level a city on a whim.

ok away from anime and back to old me. Been devoting my energy into my semester project, which is just about done, and have to present it to 2 teachers tommorrow. thinking back, maybe should have chosen my teamates more carefully. back then it was like random, according to where we were sitted just then. Little did i know our group efficiency was so low. oh well, next semester will be a different story.

exams coming, next week i think. eep. wont be posting again for at least another 2 weeks. then i'll make a new Inverse-themed blog skin and post again ^^

wish me luck ppl

... not happy

2005-08-14T16:09:00.000+08:00

... miserable enuff not to make a sketch for today

i wonder who actually reads this site. care to tag when u read it? i dont mind. infact i'll be happy to know exactly who is reading these Logs.

anyway, things have been boring lately. yea, discovered the wonders of DotA, discovered a new (well, old) anime called Slayers, but overall its been dull. my Html assignment's done and over with, and now i'm left with the web project. we need to hand it in by week 15.. now its week 12 already. what have we done? close to nothing's final. i still think individual work is much better. Coordinating this bunch is impossible.

heh, so maybe this is the dark side of poly education. too much competition, unlike in sec sch encouragement comes from everywhere. not to forget the teachers always "reminding" us of our due dates. lol.

oh well, reminicence time is over, back to work. cya all next time

Blazorax~

unthoughtfulness

2005-08-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

i'm am very very pissed right now, so i'm using the blog to sound off. I made a post yesterday about something to do with the Jap module and me, so read that if you would rather not read this. Why am i pissed ya say? its because of some rather unthoughtful person, namely my mom.

see, my great-grandmother (mother of my mother of my mother) died a few days ago. her funeral's going on right about now. thing is, she asked me to go on the first or second day , i went, of course, to pay my respects, even tho i don't approve of funerals at all. see, IMO when a person dies he or she leaves, no matter how elaborate a funeral is he or she cant appreciate or feel it. and i dont believe in a "one god" either, or any number of gods either. I consider Mother Nature to be the most powerful force on this planet, second only to Man's self-destructive capability.

what happened then that made me so really irritated. well, this oh-so-thoughtful mom of mine had a great idea! she asked me to go TODAY, monday. its the last day of the funeral, and i thought why not? yea i was tired an all after a 8-6pm school day, but yea, last respects, no? problem arises here, after i went there, not 5 mins into the thing she spots me and waves me over to join her in the stupid prayers thing. i obliged knowing my mom, but i then realized this is only the first round of 3. omg. and i had no idea it was optional either. so there i was sitting there, breathing fumes, steadily getting faint and more and more annoyed. by the end of the first round i was gripping my head from a near-migrain level headache. well, as anyone who knows me well know i would, i lost my temper at the second round and stormed off (well that caused my head to split again, damn) i'm sure i offended a few of my elders there, but what do i care? I'm the one whos had a long day, and is having adverse effects from the fumes, and i don't even believe in this crap

I don't think i did anything wrong and i'm not sorry either, so don't bother berrating me.

TengFei - Blazorax
p/s: if my kids ever hold this kind of funeral when i'm gone, i'll literally rise from the dead and burn everything down. grrrrrrr

of Japanese and stuff

2005-07-31T22:59:00.000+08:00

how many times have i said i hated and regreted taking the Japanese module? dunno, but no matter how many times, it won't be enough. X(. just imagine, i'm pretty sure i got below 15/50 for term 1 ICA. Thats 8 marks from my test and 5 from assignment. wait, thats only 13...and i'm pretty sure my assignments aint 5. btw, like the post of the pic? lol i think its pretty funny, tho i'm now way too lazy to color it up in photoshop.

The holidays have been, well, boring, to say to least. Nothing interesting whatsoever happened, except that WeiFoong intro-ed me into www.gunzonline.com, which is really a pretty fun game, please try it out. and as long as your ping isnt more then 300, i'm willing to accept challenges =D Whats the theme of the week ya ask? Assignments assignments and more assignments. spent half the week playing around with 1209 HTML's assignment, o'course, i'm not complaining. then today i did a little maths. *gasp* i did maths. by myself! ... Armegeddon is coming soon.

Gonna try and make a new site soon, complete with none-blogger address, and like last time all this site will do is redirect. and yea i noticed i repeated this more then 5 times in the past months, but this time i really am gonna do it. Cuz i think i learnt enough html and CSS to do something new. and as usual it will be handcoded by noone but myself (unlike everyone else lol... do i sound a little too full of myself? *shrug*).

Till next time, my readers (think i can count the number with my 2 hands).

Blazorax

Hot Coffee,bad times

2005-07-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

Can't believe i already hit 120 posts. lol.i know some other people have probably gone over that, but well, my posts are less of a daily dairy thing and more of a journalist article thing. i wonder why i even post here. maybe cuz i want my views of the world to be heard? *shrug*

todays topic: the recent crisis in the gaming world, regarding Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas, and the controversial Hot Coffee mod, which unlocks a certain pixelly sex minigame.

My views is that there is something very wrong with US politics. I'm not badmouthing the higher ups, but yes, i think that there is something VERY wrong with those uptight people who claim that "Videogames are for kids" and that "kids should not be exposed to this malevolent view of the world". kids? GTA:SA is rated M 17+ for god sakes. yes, we know retailers do not have to check for age, but it IS rated. both the Movie and TV industries have thier own rating (and there isnt a law in the world that states that retailors would be fined if NC movies are sold to minors). who else is at fault? Everyone.Take Two and Rockstar are rightly blamed to not show the explicit content. the ESRB should be faulted for not rating things the right way (please. whats the difference between M17+ and AO18+? one years difference?) the parents who bought the games for their kids should be faulted for not using the rating at all. the kids? i dunno bout them. as long as they understand what the hell is going on and they shouldnt go around fucking their girlfriends, its ok.

thats it for today. i dont believe any of my readers (if theres any) can stand a longer rant. =)

bad bad week

2005-07-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

...
bad bad week. no real mood to type anything
suffice to say i have family, school, and monetary concerns right now. serious ones
haiz.
wish there was someone to talk to ...
but theres noone i can talk to ... comfortably.. not even *you*

blazorax souledagar Teng Fei...

2005-07-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

whattehey... so long since i last posted. As if anyone cares huh.
i'll be taking off the top picture soon, since i've decided not to work on the comic in any sort of reliable way. again, as if anyone cares. might post some art randomly, when i feel like it. i'm no art student, but at least i can use photoshop to some extent.

well. I don't regret coming to Nanyang Polytechnic. My grumbling about not getting into DET has lessened since the last time i sounded off here. i love the projects, assignments and tutorials. someone get rid of the lectures. that aspect of change isn't as good as the rest.
Found that i can keep up (even be ahead in some modules), with only Cmath and Japanese being my main weakness. i find the complementary elective far from being complementary. In fact, its currently fighting for dominance with Cmath, a core module. I wonder if i could drop the entire language all together, i didnt shake off Chinese for this.

i still hate group projects, as i feel group mates are more of a liability then an asset. as friends these group of people are fine, as collegues that i have to work with? terrible.

anger hate self-destruct

2005-06-11T10:43:00.000+08:00

i'm not worthy....

Death to all slackers!

2005-06-06T18:27:00.000+08:00

....
pissed.
very.

i have to let some steamed off here, before everyone in IT0510-2 knows about this site. in truth, i am not "angry". more "fustrated" then "angry". This is what its all about: Group Project. Throughout my secondary school years there have been quite a few group projects. Every Single Time i get a slacker group, sometimes i go with the slacking, sometimes i don't. and when i don't, i become the ONLY person who does ANY FREAKING THING. Why don't i ever get to group with someone like Yan Xiang, Mark, and the others? GOD. At least YanXiang is more mature then the others, and is suitably enthusiasthic about his work. my group? i have a really un-enthu Leader who prefers to talk about Gunbound and YuGiOh then the project, i have 2 html idiots, who doesnt bother to look things up themselves. the last group member, is okay, tho abit too quiet (but i forgive him for that.. i used to be like that no?)

a whole freaking week has passed and we have done *nothing* at all. we are supposed to present and hand in our project proposal on Week 5, and finish the entire project by week 15. Talk about doomed. Add to this is the possibility i would actually get into the Halo 2 team. Stress.

I'm going to start on the project proposal... we do have a scheduled project discussion on thurs, but i predict we aint gonna get anything done there, so i might as well go out on a limb and start things up. hopefully all this group needs is a spark, to start a fire.

TF
Blazorax

Project sux

2005-06-06T17:04:00.000+08:00

group project sux. yay for individual work.
y do i say this? cuz my group, as usual, is a fuking slack group.

Tf

2005-06-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

wee... a relaxed blog post today.

those reading this blog should know i've been posting rather... heavy post for a long time. sometime i really don't understand why i've been posting here. i'm no aspiring journalist. but wot the heck i just do it. justifies me creating a website. lalalalalalaa.... so hows me? hmm... i'm ok at school, nothing too bad yet. don't have a cca, but thinking of joining the mind sports club or sumthing. nothing bad with improving my weiqi playing ability right? its too bad only 2 ppl in my class have ANY experience at all with that game.

HTML is pretty boring. yes i know i'm sort of bragging, but whatever that is taught in this semester i pretty much know. all i need is a month and i'll have everything hardcoded into my brain. JAVA tho... java is a little more interesting. i've been thru the first practical, and its NOTHING like C++, in that it is actually more fustrating and longwinded. in short, i hate it. but i expect i'll come to like it more after i actually start remembering the syntax.

so. 1st week over. a few hundred more to go. Gambatte to everyone!.

TF Blazorax/Blazorboy

qwer

2005-06-03T19:02:00.000+08:00

qwer

Gunbound World Champion

2005-06-01T05:41:00.000+08:00

recently i've encountered a phenomenon that saddens me to the core. this ... event has to do with what we all know as "Gunbound". Softnyx has been listening to its fans on input, and thus decided to now lump every improvement it can into a new and exciting package. that package is in the form of a new game: Gunbound World Champion.

the thing that saddens me is not the release of a brand new Gunbound. It is the response. Look into any of the ingame chatrooms right now, and you can see hundreds of screaming little children yelling about how the new game sucks. worse, its the Singaporeans and other SEAsians doing this, while the rest of the world's gamers are trying to nicely ask them to stfu and deal with it. the new GB infact has many many new and good changes, including new mobiles, maps and stuff. What we cannot grasp, is that these good programmers and game makers are slaving away through the night (11-4am...AM) to make sure the new game runs smoothly. of course they're hiccups, crashes and all. but the game is in its infancy! whats worse is they're doing this for FREE.

i don't know whats wrong win the Singaporean crowd, i really don't. We somehow CANNOT cultivate this "Gamer's Code" stuff. be polite, dont scream and shout... all this. you want to know what i mean? go to the Gunbound online free forums and see for yourself.

i rest my case. STFU you farking noober. deal, or get the hell out. this applies to all free online games.

TF
Blazorax/Blazorboy.

BLUAH

2005-05-30T16:22:00.000+08:00

woot. in one of the... er "html" lab sessions
erm.... for once, i'm dissapointed.lol. y? cuz it teached "creative web design" as if i dun't know that already. does anyone think my page is not creative enuff, in terms of being only a personal blog? sure there are better templates out there but hey, i'm no freelance designer. my job as an IT student is to learn how to code, but i do know how to create well enough looking pics.

right. i'm in the ab. noone's actually doing anything that has anything to do with web design. checking mai... wait. should i even write these stuff? better not.

oh btw, check out websitesthatsuck.com cute, and pretty informative, tho i can say abit dated.

cya all, back to the lab i go.

TF

WCG

2005-05-29T01:38:00.000+08:00

Alright. So things have been going pretty smoothely since the last post. Well heck things have been going smoothly since NYPorientation, bar one or two minor problems. Recieved our personal timetables, and subsequently bought our needed lecture/tutorial notes. Stuff looks all set. today and tomorrow shall be as Gandalf said, "The deep breath before the plunge". hopefully the first weeks of school will be smooth sailing.

Looked through 2 module's top topics... and i don't understand anything. lol. Math's first page was decieving. "The Number System" who hasn't seen that every year since Secondary 1? turns out its a trick to lure students into a false sense of security, since the next page is " The Binary System". the way they turn 1's and 0's into other numbers is simply magical. XD

I've entered myself into the tryouts for the NYP Team of World Cyber Games, in Halo 2 and CounterStrike: Source (CS is more of just having fun and making a fool of myself, as well as try out the game :) while Halo2 i'm really serious about entering the thing)

wish me luck!

TF, Blazorax
p/s: Blazorax will be my handle from now on on forums, my gamertag on Xbox LIVE and other internet stuff. GB ID will remain Blazorboy, cuz er.. well it sounds appropriate for a game like Gunbound ;) cya all
p/p/s: added a new link, Ivan's Blog

eh....

2005-05-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

sry for the lack of new art stuff... been unable to stir enthusiasm to do anything at all.
watched star wars ep3 today with family. pretty good, tho i'll rather have watched it frends (its seems i now have a lack of those... nvm)

R2 totally kicked everyone's ass in the movie. put a smile on my face, he did. Yoda was good too, compare him to his ep 1,4,5,6 appearence he's way better then he used to be. the fights were nice, storyline fairly good (considering we already knew how it'll turn out). thats all. nothing really *spectacular*... but.. what did i expect? not much.

er... thats all for this short post i guess... cya all

TF "Blazorax"
p/s: i've got alot to think about, excuse me for the short post.

IT0510

2005-05-21T14:47:00.000+08:00

so. orientation's over. ummm yea over.
Day1:
first day is a little sian, since half the day is talks and whatnot. the only really interesting part of that ultra-long intro is the WCG call for tryouts for the NYP team. i was half asleep by then, and didn't catch the email address. man what a waste. i need to go and stare at the noticeboards until they show it again. after that was breezed through, so i don't remember much of day 1

Day2:
things pick up slightly, the first portion was a maths lecture and tutorial, part a-math crashcourse, part taste of lectures and tutorials. boring. PC survival is better since we get to sit infront of a pc. since MSNMSGR is blocked, i've been thinking of setting up an obscure account in an obscure forum, to act as IM for IT0510. need to discuss with the class first.

Day3:
again with the lectures. got out admin cards. Mine and a few others got a slightly different one. duno y. been trying to look around at noticeboards but can't seem to catch the email add. i do know tryouts are on 19-20 june. i'll be there.

so. my super brief write up on the 3 day orientation. =P many thanx goes to our OGLs(orientaition group leaders) Azura, WeiPing, and Nathan (the president, our OGL! =PPP)
it'll take time for the enitre class of er... 17? to really bond, but i'm thinking we'll do, since most of us digs anime.

ok...i'm getting a little desperate with the WCG here.. so here goes: anyone who knows the email for World Cyber Games, Nyp Team, please tell me, thru whatever means. thanks!

waddhey!

2005-05-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

booyah... now in NYP orientation. some kind of pc survival course lol -.-
Friendster is BLOCKED! wahahahah blogger is still better then most ( i still hate the goddamn stupid bar on top.)

anywayz... again for everyone to know... my art stuff are in Deviant Art ... ummm heres the LINK. lol thats kinda all for now.. nothing much to say, since the OGL all crapping nia. and.. i have this new little email the school gave us. but... i rather anyone email me thru ngoo_tfAThotmail.com. ain't got too much space at nyp email (20mb... pathetic).

oh... i'll draw up a quick 3 page overview of the orientation if i find the school has a scanner. =3
cya all

Mood: Normal

byyyy the way... i made up a little wallpaper, only availabe in 1024x768
click the small pic to link , or right-click save target as. k? =)

edit: i updated the links section to include websites i really like. and also changed the web address to http://blazorax.blogspot.com. i also updated the About Me, and Online Handle (formally Nicks), cuz the old ones were obsolete. and yes, to any IT0510 guys who bothered to visit this page, thanks. u guys totally rock. some of my stuff, like any digital art i made, can be found in the DeviantArt link to the right. i update that page whenever i find time to upload sumthing. the most recent one i usually post here. for those who can't get my name right, call me TF, all my sec sch friends call me that. =)

RAWR! bitch.

2005-05-17T09:45:00.000+08:00

grrrrr... why does everything happen the wrong way.

Look E3! wow! great it goes on the 18-20... exactly the date of my Nanyang Polytechnic orientation. ah! Star Wars ep III! on the freakin 19th!. *screams*

anyway... main argument for the post today is how unfair that shop my mum has is. Ever since that ridiculous idea to get a shop for herself popped into her head, life's just going from bad to worse. That shop is a money vacuum. From what i can see, a thousand or two goes into rent every month. add to that the buying of stock, and u get a money sucker. And its not just money it sucks I tell you... it sucks away everything i own too. Apparently since i started "working" there would be no need to give me anymore pocket money! wattehell? update m'am that puny amount of money ain't gonna keep up once i quit to go to school. this is the part where the hate for that god-damn Hobby Deli really births.

She's not willing to give me pocket money, she takes away the only printer/scanner thats working in the house, she won't get a laptop for me unless i "relinquish" this computer. This, and the fact that the brings home more then 3k a month, half of which is sucked into that hellhole of a shop?! not to mention she wants to quit being a manager and going full into that FARKING SHOP!!!! ARRRG i'm really pissed i'm off.

I cursed the day i was doomed to come to this family. Damn watever God(s) there is/are up there. damn you.

RASENGAN!

2005-05-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

Look at that! omg... that has to be my best CG EVER! Naruto! weeeeeeee
Copyright Kishimoto for the original Naruto!
also many thanks goes to Dattebayo Fansub group for providing us with this excellent comic (and their respective art stuff)

haha... as usual i went a little nuts when making the Rasengan in the background (not that clear, but it Is a rasengan...)... goddamn i'm proud of this thing! XD

Life@132 comic will be on hiatus until i reach level 10 in CG =P ..

does noone agree with me?

2005-05-08T18:14:00.000+08:00

What can i say? i am... confused. very. about many things. Does not each religion teach the same thing? patience, love and virtue? does not our parents tell us we need to give way to others, and to take not pleasure in taking, but in giving instead?

Yet all around i see things that are otherwise, especially at home. "What have you done to support this family? What have you contributed?" i keep hearing this words over and over again. but is not my duty as eldest son to carry on my father's bloodline, and support my parents when they grow old? i am not even legally "of age" (i do not consider the ability of going into jail that is given to us boys at 16 as coming of age, instead i the age whereby all the chains of the law is opened of age [e.g. smoking driving and all other crap])

and furthermore, what'll be the answer if i turn the question back. sure they've supported me financially, but that ain't such a great deal looking at the jobs they have. but all the memories of my childhood are .... not so nice. esp from my mum's side. ya dunt want to know. *sigh*

"this land is where your tears freeze and your heart dies" does Koyuke's words also apply to my home?

DeviantART

2005-05-06T00:37:00.000+08:00

Oooookay. now i have a permanent home for my comics. DeviantArt! it may seem crazy, by to hell with it. i'm thickskinned enough to show everyone my shit. XD i've added a "Comic Archive" row to the left sidebar, and linked to deviantart. i love that place. hopefully i can link straight out from that side, so i dont have to worry about bandwith for my comic anymore. I'm designing a new site for my blog, because the comic doesnt fit with the entire site...

the comic's a bang on Game Physics. Its the..er.. game world rules, where heroes can kill millions and destroy a Star Cruiser, yet cannot open a wooden box by force. lol. hope its funny.

lately been playing way too much halo 2 for my own good, and also recieving an urge to buy Rome: Total War. its Lord of the Ring style of gameplay is attracting me like honey is to bee.
school starts May 30. should i be excited, or filled with dread? *shrug*

bah! no comic!

2005-05-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

AGGGHHHH i had enough. for some reason, this week's comic is incredibly difficult to ink and color using paintshop (yes i'm still using it. i dont know PS well enough yet)

so... after like a week of struggling to color this again and again, i have given up. blah.still, i've uploaded the lineart i scanned into the computer. (Yaohui nii-chan colored the second one, but Ripway doesnt seem to like his file much. *shrug*)

Comic 2 "Birthday" (Aborted)
Lineart for Part 1
Lineart for Part 2

the next comic will be up either on friday or monday next week.

rampant speech bubbles

2005-04-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

GAH! my first comic, and so many things go wrong? blueh.
alright, i've updated the pic. (if anyone noticed, the last one had a comically rampant speech bubble) corrected all the mistakes too.
if theres one thing i hate about JPEG picture format, its the picture quality. the more i squeeze the size of the pic down the worse it gets =(

i did this in paint shop btw, i'm switching to photoshop for the next one.

Comic 2 "Birthday"
Script 100%
Sketch. 100%
Inking 0%
Colour, shading 0%

a birth

2005-04-27T03:52:00.000+08:00

okay... so i've lagged behind in making new stuff, but now i've arrived and solved it again. From now on Rampancy Logs will have a comic on it, and at least in every 2 weeks there will be an update. that i can PROMISE .. and i WILL do it. wahaha. all comments should go to the comments link below. i've killed the tagboard for some reasons of my own ( i hate pop ups, and i feel people shouldnt get an extra one everytime they visit this site)
this passage will now carry the ''rant'' as all webcomic pages call it, the ravings of the artist. good for me. i wont post that often, but i'll be sure to post everytime i update the comic. an Archive of past webcomics will appear in the future.

so. enjoyed the current one? i hope so. spent ALOT of time doing it >.< haha. the comic draws on my fear of windows, always crashing when its a crucial time. erg. but i still like windows more! if ms takes away the activation crap i shall love it even more! XD

TF

time bomb's a-tinking~~

2005-04-23T14:07:00.000+08:00

yo guys. heard about last week's catastrophe of my computer? (if you haven't check out my archives ^^) well things are resolved now, in a way. Windows now boots without ultra-long loading times, but a few things are really awry. like..... every single program the com used to have is still there.. but unrecognized by windows, meaning i cannot properly uninstall. all of them. i found a work-around... by re-installing them. kinda longwinded since i have ALOT of programs. on the plus side, all my trial programs seems to reset its timers, so now i have another 60 days for paint shop ! weee

on the down side... a big one. Windows now needs to be activated, online or thru phone. thing is... i lent yh the activation code once.. and now i cant use it. one use only. bleh. i'm starting to like Mac and its OSX more and more... !@#$.

on a side note, i might start a new comic line soon. maybe, if i master the comic drawing thing first.

days are boring now.. tho i suddenly find myself playing Halo 2 like crazy. lol. Xbox Live rocks!

TFei

OMG!

2005-04-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

AUGH! curse all the computer-idiots in this world.
there is a reason why I don't let everyone use my new computer.. to safeguard it! i know for a fact that my computer is no Mac, and thus is vulnerable to every single virus/malicious program on this earth targeted at Windows, and PCs, ranging from the hardisk-wiping Uninstall of Myth II, to the global spanning big-guys, SoBig.

thus, the moment i become lax in my locking up of this holy black box, something happens. i have let my mom do many things. ALAS! for look! Norton Antivirus, Zone Lab's firewall have suddenly stopped functioning. And look, all the major websites for antivirus's and firewalls have become mysteriously dysfunctional. I have looked at a file she downloaded with suspicion, but i did not think it importent then...but now this!Is it a conspiracy to shut down the world's security? NO! it is but a powerful and efficient Trojan, at work behind the scenes of my computer, trying to disable my fortress of defence. but all hope is not lost. the first wall may be breached, but i have other defences waiting. already through a powerful foreign scanner i have detected this malicous wooden horse of deceit. and in a few clicks i shall end its reign of terror.

but... there is a problem that is still not yet solved. the trojan has done its job. Norton, my warning bird, is missing several critical files, making it impossible to start. my trusty firewall (which has stopped 300+ hacking attempts to date) seems unwilling to load. What shall i do?! I will not despair, not while a single line of code still runs.

Fie this world, and the heavens above!

TFei
ps. i have not gone crazy.. it is but the nerd in me speaking ;). and its true the computer is infected... i HAVE scanned and identified the little git...we will see if everything goes well after the restart

ridiculous gits

2005-04-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

a new post! ...
this is another rant from me.. i guess i post nothing but rants now heh.
thats cuz i dont like to post dairy-like stuff... take this for example:

Monday:
Woke up, ate a fish, scared a tourist

Tuesday:
Woke up, ate a fish, scared a tourist

Wednesday:
Woke up, ate a tourist, scared a fish

heck yea you get what i mean....
so no daily posts for me thats for sure. on that note i should probably get on with my rant huh
Today's Topic: the Government
I think... well.. in simple words, its getting a little ... daft. lol
it takes them a LONG time to decide on things, what with the debates, red tape, loopholes and all that crap. maybe its time to simplify things a little bit. also, its own rule... Pragmatism, is not really followed. What happened to LKY's liking for back-up plans and such. now everything that falls apart on the first try is abandoned.
One good example for this would be MOE's shiny new school registration system, just put to the test in the most recent JAE. guess what, it fell apart. the server couldnt handle the load (the load, infact, is considered light, where the internet is concerned. Halo 2 at Launch week probably had several times its load) the MoE couldnt compensate.. and was reduced to trying to curb the angry comments of parents and students. at the last days of the exercise the server size was expanded. guess what, by then, everyone's finished with it, however they did it.

a second example will be the most recent large political news here: "Casino,build or not to build"
after lots of debate, the senate has finally decided. It will not build a casino, for that will influence the population of Singapore. infact, it has decided to built two casinos!

i rest my case.
Just WHAT were they thinking? whatever happened to the ''degradation of society"?

Tf

rampant thoughts

2005-04-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone... it seems that my new blog is being delayed more and more haha....
truth is everything is pretty much done, the only thing left is making a new blogger entry page into that site, and converting this mchief.blogspot.com site into merely a splash page...

well... as time pasts, it seems the whole idea of not getting in either DET or DMD is finally sinking into my head. *sigh* i really have no idea what to think of this. a small voice in my head tells me... "hey, you at least made it into IT, cheer up man"... but then, it still remains a fact that i wasn't good enough to get into either of those courses..... it all boils down to this like yea?
i wasnt good enough....................

heck, no point crying over spilt milk right? lol... yet, like the nagging voice of Creshinibon, sumthing keeps telling me to give up, to throw everything i've worked for away, to crawl into a corner and waste my life away. of course, i wont give in like this. no on this dream of mine... it might come to past yet!

watch out NYP, your best IT student has arrived! (heh.. i sound like Naruto)

eyurgh?

2005-04-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

YAY i finally recieved the damn package...
hmm... ok so commencement date is.. 30th May... so long still
and look! a student guide! **reads**.... hrrmph boring stuff...
looking thru the rest of the stuff now haha

anywayz... today is what you call an ''out of the line'' day...what do i mean? it means that today was unlike any other day... and by today i also mean the full 24hrs, including last night. well last night i had a meaningful discussion of... er... something, instead of going to sleep like usual. ended up sleeping only at 3am for some funny reason. and i got a ver impt question ( to me, i guess) answered! =) and then i only woke up at something like 4 pm **gasp**. heehee

then i recieved the stupid package when opening the mailbox! whoa that was a laaate thing. i'm supposed to send this in by next week! =/ looks like alot of paperwork

oh well... wierd post. er... the end. cya ;]

p/s: go read Shaman King, and Fullmetal Alchemiest... very nice, both of em

enough

2005-04-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

well hey... didnt expect myself to post here still
but i'm here only to whine and complain this time, so tune out if you want.
who or what am i going to whine about? My brother. the little one, not my best friend. Just thinking about him irks me. this is the kind of time, when i wondered why i prayed for a brother when i was a kid. but hell does heaven have a sense of perverted humour, if it even exists. he's exactly the way i asked him to... and exactly the way i didnt ask, e.g. i forgot quiet, nice, obedient.

*sigh*

the immortal words of Koda the Bear, "I've always wanted a brother." seems to apply to me. i've always wanted a BIG brother dammit, not a little one. that was impulse. a big bro that protects me from the disapproving stares of my parents. one that teaches me the ways of the world. Maybe i found one already, i dont know... he's just my friend, and i dont really want to push the "Big Brother" title on him. i aknowledge he has a life...

i guess... i dont need to go on... so cya
(update: no more flash for me.... maybe after i start school me urge to learn would return)

heh

2005-03-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

maybe the blog aint closeing as soon as i thought! haha...
blog construction has been on hiatus, so i think i'll finish it a lot later.. maybe around my birthday heehee. i blame it on Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic. and its younger brother. mainly because it is so damn addicting to see everything through. only when i'm done with one portion i can tear myself away from the game, and even then, the need to see the overarching story through will pull me back pretty quickly. well then, after i'm done with KOTOR2 i'll finish work on my new website, then finally begin my journey of learning the power of the Flash. i shall become a ...a... hrrm, what do you call someone who uses flash? nvm.

i'm gonna start learning to use Flash properly since i got a hold of the main program... yay! tho i would like dreamweaver too.. but to hell with it i'll make do with what i have.

extremely short post? i think so too ... **dives back into move lightsaber sizzling and blaster shooting**

cya...

new beginnings

2005-03-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

hey everyone (if theres anyone still reading this derelict) ... gonna change my site soon. its gonna be over at -link- Complete Serenity -link- , completely replacing this blog. This site wil still remain, and become the "splash page" for the new site, cuz i think the site's name is really too long. haha. theres gonna be 2 versions of the page, one for people using 800x600, another for 1024x768. i'm using the latter, so obviously its gonna be easier to design for that.=) the main difference will be layout and where buttons and all that are placed.... right now only the 1024 version exists, when i am satisfied with that, i'll start work on the 8x6 version.

this page will become blank, when both sites are up and fully functioning. hopefully by the time that happens i would have learnt some Flash and make this page into something facinating, for a splash page heehee.

btw i got in Nanyang Polytechnic, yay. the bad news to me is that i failed to get in both Digital Entertainment Tech. and Digital Media Design ...=( ...*sigh* i'm stuck with lousy ole InfoTech. but ah well it helps me make webbies too! so thats not too bad, i hope.

thats all for this posts.. thx for reading ppl..

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The Rampancy Logs
June 2004 - April 2005
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I have walked the edge of the Abyss.
I have governed the unwilling.
I have witnessed countless empires break before me.
I have seen the most courageous soldiers fall away in fear.
[I was there with the Angel at the tomb]
I have seen your future.And I have learned.
There will be no more Sadness. No more Anger. No more Envy.
I HAVE WON.
- Cortana
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Regarding games, censorship, and politics

2005-03-17T05:19:00.000+08:00

In Singapore, the casino debate is polarizing the opinions of its citizens. In the US, something much less trivial is being debated upon. Believe or not, its GAMES.

The current topic is whether videogames nowadays are violent, and whether a more powerful control should be built over the current system. The are many... and I mean _many_ talks on this. The point is, unlike S'pore's casino, which would only affect Singapore and Singapore, the games issue would impact the entire gaming industry, which itself is already larger then the movie or TV ... Or DVD industries, despite being a lot younger.

my views on this matter depends. A lot of sites ask this question :
Are the majority of today's videogames violent in nature?

My answer will have to be yes. In my estimates 99% of games include violence, the only question is the level of violence, and how mature is the audience. Tetris is violent, since you witness blocks that explode whenever you tile them together. Mario is too, if you think it that way. The question is: will the gamers accept it, and what meaning do they get out of it.

Politicians have risen a new question of whether games factor into the new level of aggression inherent in our society's youth. The answer to that question is, in my humble opinion, yes, but only to a certain extent. The aggression in my view, being an adolescent myself, is instilled into us through society itself. The fact that we need to fight our peers for a upper hand in education, races or whatever, much earlier in life then our predecessors, is the cause of this inherent aggression. Games, in my opinion, is actually a way in which we blow off steam, much like movies. Even though scientist keep saying that games actually hike up this aggression through andrenaline and other BS, it is a known *fact* that after we finish a round of Halo, we feel exhilarated and that complete feeling of gaming bliss. That we would want to blow our fellow gamer apart with real guns is probably the last thing in our minds. (unless of course we lost horribly, but would that be different from a round of cards?)

This is where there is a hitch. Society has groomed us to be competitive, and capable of handling massive amounts of stress, but there are certain people whose minds just cannot do it. This anomalies, would start seeking places to vent that stress induced anger. And when they cant find it, they turn vaguely insane. This, I say, is what caused some of those crazed kids to go after their friends. For the rest of the 99.999% of gamers out there, I believe games are safe, some even educational and healthy, infact.

Anyway.. If Videogames is linked to crime, shouldn't movies like the Matrix, which talks about hacking and going against the "law", and board games like Risk, which promotes conquering the world be banned just in case another super-hacker or another Hitler come around? Treat games like an entertainment platform, not drugs. Thanks for reading

Blaz/TF

bad bad thing

2005-03-04T11:49:00.000+08:00

pfft. you would think the ministry of education always planned ahead. they are part of the great forward looking Singapore Government are they not? well it seems no this time they failed miserably.

The Joint Admission Exercise went way wrong i guess, seeing as to how a server system could be down for pretty much 70% of the day. Even during non-peak hours the servers are snail-slow. Obviously it was not made to hold they weight of even one tithe of the entire Dragon-year cohort, waiting to enter the system to register their choices. On that note, i always thought the MoE was silly to put up an entirely new system when the Dragons come in. We always knew there would be alot of us, yet they insisted. Thus we come to witness the slowing down of both the slowing down of JAE and SingPass servers. silly silly ministry.

anyway.. they have extended the dateline of the exercise now its until monday but i dont really think it'll help things much. there would be people who are not able to submit their choices even then. things could have been done much differently. i can only hope next year they are sufficiently prepared.

a new beginning...

2005-02-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

wow.. i can't believe its almost 1 year since i opened the blog... its undergone so many changes.. from the old days when i relied on ready made templates.. to exploring new templates others have made... to learning HTML and CSS to make my own template and finally coming up with this! (not to mention photoshop.. to make the logo~ ^^)

results for the LONG awaited O lvls are out.. you wont believe how apprehensive i were in the hours prior to the event...ack
these are my results for whoever out there cares:
English Language : c5
Mathematics :c5
Chinese Language :c5 (alright i get it! my cores are bad)
Sciences (phys/chem: A2 (yay! bullseye! i always was good at this...)
Design n Tech :B3 (alot better then i expected...)
Humanities :C6
POA :C6

so my L1R2B2 would be 20... meh... worse then i thought.. *sigh*...
oh well... since the new cut offs depend on demand for the new courses... i would still try for them.. nomatter what it takes.. i get into one of 'em i will!

thats all.. btw.. this marks the beginning of a new chapter for this blog.. i've gotten tired of Blogger and its limited capabilities (and that really annoying top banner, a link would have been sufficient right...) i'll try and make a new blog layout.. then i'll see about shifting places for my blog =D

thingy

2005-01-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

http://home.ripway.com/2004-9/171492/Adobe_Photoshop_CS_v8[1].0_and_Adobe_ImageReady_CS_v8.0.zip

!!

2005-01-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

omg... how long has it been since i last wrote in this thing? rofl... a long long time it seems... anyway, look at the date! HaPpY nEw Year everyone! ;) woooot.
lol.. anyway it seems i have sudden interest in a ..er.. relatively new game: Homeworld 2! muahahaha its a cool RTS game set in space. so instead of fightning on flat ground its 0 grav! chio. anyway.. i'm out here , hopefully i can have enuff time to redo my site to be more halo2-ish ^^ weee . good game, horrible ending =D

ok so bye...(lame lame end)

-Blaz

release

2004-11-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

ooof.... in the words of Buffy the Vampire Slayer in Graduation Day Part 2

"Guys take a moment to think about it... we survived"
"yea that was one heck of a battle"
"no... high school"

=]
lol. well i can't believe its finally over. 4 years of work rolled in to one boss-battle and voila here i am. its over! not that i'm too happy, cuz i'm starting to miss the days already. anyways i got myself a job at an arcade with a respectable rate, 4 bucks per hour. pathetic, but thats better then working at the mac.

work starts this wed, so gotta start gearing up~ not much to say anymore so here:
You've worked hard, now play hard. Thats an ORDER! =P

your friendly neighbourhood Blazorax...

one post at a time...

2004-11-14T01:30:00.000+08:00

wow... its a long time since i came here eh? heehee...
well, been very busy lately, what with the O levels.. Halo 2... surprising i'm even writing this at all. lol.the Os was.. ok.. i guess, since i actually studied and was at least confident i can pass. But, passing isnt enough, far from it. Erg. I dunno how i'm gonna actually do this. Right now most of the impotant subjects are out of the way.. i'm kinda left with... lemme see... ah.. POA(someone get Pillar of Autumn out of my head pls)... D&T... what else... umm i dont really remember =P

Halo 2... what can i say... its like i'm the only fan in Singapore whos actually following the Bungie trail.. thats damn boring. anyway.. sad to say the story is one gigantic dissapointment. well actually the story itself is very good, once you figure everything out. but the ending is terrible.. talk about cliffhanger! ... man. But then.. the game had its fun moments.. well .. lots of them. Bungie crafts things this way.. 30 secs of fun.. over and over again. this time emotions were an issiue as well.. For some reason i felt sad when Cortana decided to stay on a Flood infested ship, just in case she has to detonate the core of the ship itself to prevent the Flood from going anywhere.. after that i missed her chatter as i fought.. well more like ran like an idiot lol. that level was wierd, it was better not to shoot then shoot. well, all i can say is... get over Counter Strike Singapore!! goddamit it makes me sick just to hear to ancient gunshots in the LAN shops.. this country is like a what? time capsule for old games? look at what they're playing... CS.. Starcraft...RAII... when theres tons of newer, better games out.( even newer CS incarnations for god's sake...)

well.. thats a pretty long game rant...
hmm.. i'll draw up sumthing heehee.. tell me your comments! oh.. there are a few links below that shows off some wallpapers off the same character of this picture.. but very differently made... heehe.. see if you like =)

Sasuke plain (800x600)
Sasuke plain (1024x768)
Avenger (800x600)
Avenger (1024x768)

Enjoy =)
BaZoRaX

i dunno

2004-10-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

one more day of "freedom"
lol ironic isn't it...
20 days ago i was complaining how far off Os seems to be... but now its wham! right in my face. hrrm. my confidence isn't there at all. nothing. i'm constantly thinking how badly i'll fail the damn exams. i feel so... erg nvm

worse off is... the people around me? arent very supportive either. always telling me to study study, yet keep saying negatives.. keep threatening with what will happn if i fail in this crap. i dunno wad to do.. xcept do more useless studying...so thats it.. more studying to do now...

feeling so lonely,
TF

lol

2004-10-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

ah.. the last few day.. din go to school. what a great change! finally i can actually concentrate on my work (tho.. the last day was totally used on somthing called...*drum roll* NARUTO!!!)
yea man, i found my new fav comic that will replace TCZ... yea its Naruto.. its about this boy.. at a small age his body has been used to seal up a powerful ninetail fox demon. now he's training to become a ninja... goddamn the thing is hilarious. tho touching, sad serious at times.. the funny parts are REALLY appropriate, and all the jokes hit right home =)

my mood really kena cheered up by the manga lor.. so fun. :] haha. ok lah... now left.. eep barely 10 days -.-'' haha STUDY! CHIOOONG AHHHH!!!!! *crashes into a lampost...*

-BLAZ

The Fallen

2004-10-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to do right now. Aimless. I just wish... someone... can understand my feelings. Someone to tell me what to do. And not... laugh... scold... and threaten. Whats the use. In all my life, everyone has done that. When i fall, someone will be there, not to help me up and encourage me, but to laugh at me, scold me and threaten me of consequences should i fail. Tell me... what good does it give you? A filling of fulfillment? Up till now... only one has tried to help me. He pulled me out of the bottomless misery at the time. But.. even he can't do it now.

Why?

Because, of one reason.
In my eyes, there is noone able to do that anymore.

-Blazorax

2004-10-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

haha this is a hilarious pic i saw in Naruto... heehee... its his Chuunin Exams, and theres not a single question he can answer ^^ (kinda like me,...).

new roads...

2004-10-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

hmm today.. i actually started concentrating in school, maybe its because today yh was late, and then when he came he shifted right back. and AP had nth else to talk about other then Ninja Gaiden, so after a while he got my hint to keep quiet. so, with noone to talk with, i turned to my work. was pretty boring. well, very , infact. i nearly fell asleep in Physics. hehz my mind even wondered back wistfully to the days i was sitting with GZ, back to the days when we always chitchat, n always boonseng would crack a lame jock n tina will turn back and shack her head, then we all will have a good laugh.

those were the days. i was closed up, but not too close to exclude those in my immediate vicinity. now, i'm much more open, but with all my friends far far away (and those that are near.. well.. are they still counted as friends), i get pretty bored and well... lonely.

tried out a new blogging website today, LiveJournal. pretty cool pretty powerful, but, too uncustomizable.. too damn simple. i got bored way too fast. you can't even code the page yourself! -.-" pffft. so, its out. and.. i've found a new webbie hosting site.. i'm gonna see if i can make a whole new page (more if they allow) for other things ^^ yay. uh oh getting way too long.. i'm outta here.. bye~

TF, Blaz

return to square one

2004-10-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

once again i back track. few days ago, i decided to open a few more days up on the front page, so as to let readers who dont go online everyday to easily just scan through, but now i seem to have encountered a little problem. my page gets too long. so, i shredded the idea, n place only one day's worth of goods here. anyone who want to see previous posts will have to go to the Archives to see. sorry bout it.

anyway.. i've been wondering alot about everything this past few days. even more so today. gone out with hl and yh, and well, just about did everything you can in Parkway. and.. when going home, mom ask me to help her carry a few things for her n her friend. the friend ( i'll call her Carol now) brought her sons to help to. I just can't help but notice the closeness of the guys. one is Sec 2, the other, P5... 3 years apart (the older was born late december bah, or retain *shrug*) . i just compare to my own blood brother, and well, i notice a few diffs. we do NOT joke, or even talk unless neccasary, they fight over the smallest things, but in a very joking way, i dont you know, my bro and i never does that. in fact, i do this with yh more often then TF-2... :-/ wierd huh. yh becomes like an older brother to me, and our friendship, to me, is closer then the bond with my own blood brother. i guess its due partly to our enormous 8 year wide age gap, so that even after NS my bro will only be at P6... -.-''

and also... recent events have also made me think about my relationship with friends other then YH... well, i opened up myself to the social environment this year, to the tremendously good result with having 3-6 more really good and fun-to-be-with people. but, something big happens, and all just, well, like dust in a nova, all blown away. left a few heavy n true friends. i'm just sad. why can't there be more true friends like these? just... wishing.

to a few people, you have to understand others, before you judge them. you know who you are.

that is all,
Blaz

tree!

2004-10-10T11:09:00.000+08:00

ha.. so early in the morning *yawn* come only to post a pretty amusing pic someone on IRC found haha. a picture of a tree doing something wierd (nothing too bad, dun't worry) see, and have a good time having your eyes enlarged.i'll post a real post later maybe

really-wierd-tree

ciaoz
TeFe

sickz

2004-10-07T13:38:00.000+08:00

omg... finally fall sick. good time too -.-. fever + running nose + sorethroat = Flu. and guess what? theres no such thing as a cure for flu. had a chat with the goold doc. he told me that flu cannot be killed, it being a virus and all, the only sure way to prevent it is to get the flu vaccine every year ack. ah well, now i have to sit tight and let the human body take the wheel. erg.

feeling terrible right now.. like wanna ... wanna faint. eyes keep going out of focus, i think its the effect of the .. yellow pill thingy for the fever. (how come its yellow? i tot fever pills are white... and its not paracetamol) pfft. miss everyone at skool. dunt really know y haha. thx tina and y2 for caring yea. should have got a 2 day MC... but hell i got posessed and told the doc i only need 1 -.-. man i feel terrible. hope tmr wont be like yest, whole day zzZ in class cos so tired. even in CHEM!

whole body aching now... even my fingers. so.. i need to stop typing.. bye~

studying make Tom a dull boy

2004-10-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

ah.... 26 days to Os.. cant be longer damn. you know how far away it suddenly seems? crap. tmr is wednesday, thus haf Charmed, thus my mood will probably be better haha (oh and tmr got no Clara Sim, n no Maths yay). been really bored, studying studying and more studying.. barely touched the Xbox (not counting the 45 mins of Ninja Gaiden in Challenger today) haha. Halo has started to get.. well.... boring . Halo 2 is 2 months away.. can't wait!.

ummm. today was.. well, fine. seeing less of her craptacular face everyday, seeing as i m shuting down all my feelings for the 3 of them. well, mostly for 2. haiz. wish it didn't come to this. wish everything could have gone fine. haiz. wish this wish that, well its over so... i'm getting over it.

tml Faith's bday...so... HAPPY BDAY!~ ^.^ weeeee
*plays Buffy the Vampire Slayer theme* ( Faith's a Vampire Slayer too, but this Faith is from real life, not TV -.-l)

books

2004-10-04T20:44:00.000+08:00

haiz... now everyday like the samez. PPP (post prelim preparation) has started. boring sia.. all lessons become two periods, with the exception of DnT which is continuos 4 period -.-;;... wtf.
and.. been staying back after school to study... works lah, which is good, at least sumthing to do. going to come n post less often now cos chionging for Os... those who've been reading all my posts have already seen my last post haha. oh yea. i'm gonna enable 3 day's post on the page, to fill up holes haha.

already started making plans for wat i'll do after Os... maybe.. go Sentosa camp with moi frends! working is for sure, probably at the arcade, but hopefully elsewhere (i dun mind being webbie admin haha). since already set my mind on a course in poly, i shan't bother myself with it.

hmm.. what else... oh ya.. everyone? JIA YOU!

stupid mistake

2004-10-03T09:23:00.000+08:00

ACK! i haf somehow killed all of prisc's blog's images. hmmm its probably the host, cuz i remember moving a metric ton of images into folders to clear up the clutter. this causes [img] url tags in her html to link to nowhere, thus making nothing show up. the only reason everything has stayed in position is because i haf somehow avoided moving her .css style code (which umm i have no idea where it is) so everything is normal. i could probably repair the damage by using her referring to her source html to see where everthing should be... but.. she's got another blog of her own, so why bother. note to self: look before you leap.

to prisc: if u want that blog's images back in place, tell me.

-Blaz

2/10/04

2004-10-02T13:03:00.000+08:00

hey all... hopefully, u've noticed some changes made to the the bloggie haha. first off i killed the prev posts, so if anyone wanna take a look at all those old old posts? just go to the archives. and then i moved the tagboard from its old inconvenient postition, to the sidebar, so it doesnt lag the page too much
i've decided to work on a new page, and i'm looking for places to host it. prime up on my list is Diaryland, no ads, just needing a quick link to it. but the downtimes that it experiences sometimes is putting me off. blogger, well, i just hate the damn bar on top... i'm also looking at Ripway hosting, but i dunno... i'll study the features more first.

anyway.. bored. damn bored. O's are approaching fast, and duh i'm studying. but this is getting old fast yea? erg. and also, i'm at a dilemma at what to focus on. thses are my goals, remember i wanna get into the Interactive Media course for TP:

B3 English
A1 Science(Physics/Chem)
B3 Design and Technology
A2 Principles of Accounts
B3 Mathematics
12

that'll give me a solid 12... i really hope to pull my maths to A2...i'm really not confident about entering the course, taking into acct my CCA is ZERO... thus giving jc a no-go. i dont wish to involve Humanities and Chinese, both which umm well, sux. haha. i'm really going hard on my math, which is not in a very good condition. EL... if i can just up my comprehension, i'll score... SC's pretty much done, Phys is on a solid footing, with Chem that will improve once i neutralize my killer, acids and bases. PoA's ok once i stop being so careless. DnT... my project sucked. BUT yh said its still possible to get a B3/4 if i work hard. so i am. grr

this is getting long, so i'm tuning off... bye.
-Blaz

memories

2004-09-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

The power of five is broken ,
As the bond between 2 tears like linen .
The minor shall leave to form new ties ,
As a new found friend arrives to revive what dies .
All that is gold that does not glitter ,
Not all who wander are lost .
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring.

A poem i sorta composed... the first few lines i made myself.. the last few i took from LOTR's Riddle of Strider.
i want to use this to tell someone that, even tho smth ended, another shall reveal itself.

feel like blowing something up

2004-09-21T23:06:00.001+08:00

haiz... feel very sad now... dunno how to say lehz. probably not a good place to place my thoughts... i dunno. there are some people i rather that they not read this. alhough putting a pw will make everybody cannot read.haiz... feel like crying... more like i want to do what piper always does:

(put your mouse over to start animation)

of course.. i dont want to blow anyone up (eww bloody) i'll probably blow my room up though. haiz...

yh: its not your fault dont worry bout it.

hmm...

2004-09-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

today.. well.. first day of school after the "2 weeks" break ...
kinda facinating, finally going back to classes after the long prelims.
everything's pretty ok today, since we practically had 5 free periods in Dnt... and the rest were fine except for the accursed chinese. thats it for school. after that went to TM to rot... for a long time. bought another celestial zone II book.. v nice. but i'm starting to get sick of the cliffhangers.
thats all for today.. short ya?

to yh: cheer up, dunt be easily downed. keep your dignity up. remember you always got your friends. and even if they all leave you, i'll still be there, up to you whether you want to accept me only.

Quote of the Day:
"Life is either a comedy or a tragedy. Usually, its your choice. You can laugh or you can whine" - Marco, Animorph

-TF, Blaz

hayabusa

2004-09-18T18:10:00.000+08:00

ah.. today kind of sian lor...
went to Funan to rot.. and to play Ninja Gaiden... budden this guy come and play.. seems determined to complete his game. well, he is. erg. ignored anyone else... in fact i found out he, was a damn fukin noob..(omg everyone is...) lol. he didnt even know how to do the simplest of Ryu's killing combos, and always relying on tricks and glitches to carry on. heck he even needed me to point out some obvious answers to puzzles( i never played his level before.) in the end after like 3 hours or so... he reach the final bosses. given, Ninja Gaiden is NOT an easy game, but erg.. the boss SLAUGHTERed him.. >.< i tried.. i lasted alot longer even though i never played that long (the only thing i played was the demo level in Challenger...)lol. after about watching him try 5-6 times i walked off, sianified.
at first wanted to go beach and rot somemore, but after eating that shrooms meal... i decided to go home... legs tired from standing there and watch.
thats all for today's event post.. ciaoz

-TF, Blazorax

t...f...?

2004-09-17T17:36:00.000+08:00

who am i? lol
what a stupid question eh?
but seriously, i dunno who i am... Teng Fei.. but.. who is that?
who or what am i tp the rest of the people i know?
haiz.

wild thoughts

2004-09-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

these few days... dunno why.. i have started thinking alot.. on er... a few things.
i dont like these thoughts, cos they often show me alot of things that i don't like, and may not be true. i wont write any of these down, because maybe it'll hurt some people.
theres.. too much on my mind. its driving me stark raving mad. i cant sleep at night, i cant concentrate on what i'm doing in the day, especially when i'm alone.i try and cure it by going out. but chances of that are getting more and more rare. alot of people are busy, or they just plain dont wanna go out with me. lol. what am i to do? i dunno...
things are different now... i cant go talking to some people, they have other problems to deal with, why heap more on them? nah. but i cannot solve these on my own.
haiz... what to do? bear with it lor..
gawd i'm so bloody tired... when i finally fall asleep my dreams are so ... disturbing. back to the old days eh? wish that voice will shutup and leave me alone in my dream.

-tf?

a pigeon with nowhere to go

2004-09-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

i've been set free... through no choice of my own... but i have to fly, the alternative is to crash on the ground. i found new lands, new places in which i can roam. But, in essence... i am a pigeon, one who knows the way home. one who thinks that if i return i'll be in safe hands again.

but who knows.. when i returned, there was noone. i heard that the owner left, believing his bird will never come back. here i am, but theres nobody waiting for my return.

what should i do? should i leave? should i try and carve a niche of my own? i've never succeeded.
my heart cracks whenever it happens... it will snap soon... later, i hope. i just wish he'll realise it before the breakdown.......

-tf.... Blazorax

double or nothing

2004-09-12T13:38:00.000+08:00

>>date log: 11 Sept 2004
today was ok.. went with yh to east coast park to study. went to this indian fast food restaurant... Rasamala's? forgot wad name ler ;P anyway the dosai there was good... just take away the "Malasa" in front can ler . the potato thing is disgusting... more i look at it more it looked like pieces of Flood.
after eating we went to the shore.. hmm .. nice wind.. then sat down at the .. round cement thingy(shrug) and tried to study while yh talked on the phone.... the air is so relaxing! therefore we ditched studying and went to the ... the.. er... rocky T thing -.-'' . sat there admire the surrounding... again, nice wind. Yh kept saying its gonna rain its gonna rain .. haha pessimist (nyah). in the end it didnt rain of course moooah-ha-ha-ha-ha. so.. we just sat.. awhile later got up to walk around the beach... and then sad at another of those rocky T thing... thats it. took a few photographs of the sky and sunlight. thats all.. after that go home lor.. yh so tired ler... had abit (well .. alot) of ice-cream to charge him up first ;). thats all.
went home and tried to rebuild my page using my own css code.. didnt work.. i'll see why later*shrug*.

-TF, Blazorax

the Discovery

2004-09-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

CSS styling for websites rox baby. i managed to edit the original code till it looks like this. the point of the overhaul is so as to create a website thats 800x600 compatible. and i've done it! woohoo! for once i did something right =) btw gimme comments in the tagboard pls? thx!

today was horrible. nothing to do at home.. so? i had to go wander around the East of Singapore. visited anywhere that has Challenger, like Tampines and Funan. ''/ not a good trip. so agonizing to look at noobz kao peh each other. see:
Funan has this huge screen where we were holding this loser out matches for Soul Calibur 2.this idiot boy came up and was chatting crap to his friend about how there are so many cheats in SC2. that earned him my glare and i pulled Ivy's Summon Suffering on him (the most powerful grapple in the game.) " SEE? i told you there were cheats! haha hes a cheater" he said to his friend... and a moment later, he accidently killed himself with Yoshimitsu's kamikaze attack... everyone had a good laugh . he walked off in a hurry.
next case: tampines had Ninja Gaiden on display, which attracted quite a crowd everyday, since NG was a very very good game. unfortunately we have this other idiot boy and his 'gang' playing. they were talking really loud on how Ryu (main char) can block everything... 'even nuclear missiles' lol talk about noobness.. and they were talking about this while fighting with the boss...right after that the boss killed him with a unblockable move -.-
lolz.......

ah well thats all for today.. QotD will come from another kid screaming his lungs away while playing ninja gaiden...

Quote of the Day:
kid: "OH NO!!! i'm gonna dieee! HELP.. oi can help me?"
pro dude(i've seen him play): "you're full health, bodoh"

-TF, Blazorax

new template incoming

2004-09-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

i'm building a new template now, since i've started to learn the CSS style codes. so, be prepared to see a brand new mchief.blogspot.com in the near future. this is so that i understand my own webpage better, and know what exactly is happening in here.

today wasnt exciting. in fact, NOTHING happened at all! hell i'm bored. but i got to read alot and think alot. which turns out is not that good.ah well since NOTHING happened i'm not gonna say anymore, nothing to say.

Quote of the Day:
"Noone can be told what Halo is, you have to see it for yourself" -Louis Wu, halo.bungie.org owner, de facto leader of the Halo fan community.
halo.bungie.org

-TF, Blazorax

Dreams...

2004-09-08T16:12:00.000+08:00

hey all... today's post might be quite long so ... :P
anyway.. yesterday night i had a really really wierd dream. you can call it nightmare if you want i don't really know which. on one hand its so cool the other.. scary. here goes:
before i slept i discussed with Ivan about today's programme, since i'm incredibly bored and my bro's sick at home. so we planned to go to the tampines sports hall for 2 hours of badminton. no doubt this was on my mind when i went to sleep. so when the dream started it was playing badminton! (lame, i know...)was playing quite ok until... me waiting for Halo 2 just took over. I guess halo 2 was on top of my mind now, since everyday i go to #hbo to chat.how the dream took over? Dream-Ivan wacked a the ball at me, hard and fast. just as my reflexes pulled my hand up the thing morphed into a spinning bullet, and my racket changed to a MA5B rifle from Halo. and when i looked at myself i realized i was suited in a dark green MJOLNIR suit -_-. oh yea and the bullet? it hit me. quite hard. i felt the impact. the shields sizzled. quite exciting really. but when i realized i was in a battlefield that quickly left my mind. you see, instead of fighting stupid funny looking aliens in my dream i was on Earth, fighting alot ... ALOT of soldiers. i could hear every single bullet fire and whiz by. god. all i could do is to fight back, throw a grenade and run my ass off. fortunately i inherited MC's speed and strength, so when i punched this poor guy his face callapse (ew...) after reaching this building i climbed my way to the top with a fire escape ladder, and threw all my grenades down (i didnt have NCC training or whatever, so only 2/5 grenades went where it should) then here comes the scary part. now that i'm on top of the building i'm trapped until someone came up. my rifle had 25 bullets and i'm left with one magazine.
wasnt long before soldiers came piling out of of the roof access. i killed a few (blood, more blood.. makes me wanna vomit.) then they started to overwhelm me. was like this semicircle, with me in the center dodging and trying to keep living. my bullets quickly ran out tho, so you know the end. i killed about 30 people? never kept count. then my shields popped.i went hand-to-hand. killed 5 more. and then i reached this guy, raised my hand and... kena stabbed in the stomach. do you know how painful being stabbed is? mjolnir didnt have a armor plate there, wierd. and so.. ow. i had to step back abit to check the damage done. ow. then his turn came. straight punch into my helmet. wham. no pain, by it cracked my visor and i cant see. that ass must have been wearing bronze knuckles. whatever it is i saw him draw a pistol and.. yea shot me.bang bang bang 3 shots. the pain was so bad i fainted. or died. i dunno which. but before my eyes closed it was hell. never had so much pain before ( not even when yh threw a pen direct hit at my balls.) so there. after awhile i woke up, wondering if i'm still alive.

there, thats my dream. wierd huh. everything was so real. i could feel every part of me. i even made my own decisions. it was cool, but scary and too real. errg hope it wont happen again

-TF, Blaz
btw.. ITS TRUE

the Revelation

2004-09-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

dont tell me if i spelled the title wrongly i dont care lol.
some off you may have noticed the gigantic logo i put on my sites lower right corner. well... i made it small to accomodate peeps with lower resolution settings. best of all.. its ANIMATED! god... this animation was done on something ALOT better then the one i used to make the blocky old title animation. cool eh? now this place really looks like a computer terminal.

today went out with hl, lt, y2 and bro to the Army Open House... moderately interesting.. i prefer Halo's weapons though. come to thing about it they did have one vehicle that looked extremely close to the civilian version of the Warthog. even that wheel on the back!didnt get to see the SAR 21... wanted to see one sooo much :( also.. the damn weather decided to start raining heavily. only let up to let us go home. git.

haiz.. feeling rather down now.. dunno why.. or maybe its i dont wanna write here? lol. great, now its my turn to hide things? haha no lar... juz.. rather not say it. should see some changes to this blog in terms of added graphics bah. escpecially the boring black background and the logo. an interesting fact is i created that curvy effect purely be accident lol. ah well... thats all for today.

Quote of the Day:
"You know that everyone you know some day will leave...but instead of saying all of your goodbyes, why not let them know you realize that life goes fast, its hard to make the good things last, treasure every moment, every day, every time you get together." - Anonymous (heard it somewhere...)

-TF, Blazorax

>:(

2004-09-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

hey all... lol post number 61... haha time flies doesnt it. well i just wish it can fly faster. reset the countdown to Halo 2 lauch date on Nov 9 now that the stupid dnt projects done and over with. lol

haiz... juz had another of my tifs with my dad... not v nice of him to say some of the things he said. bastard. whatever! i'm not gonna be bothered by that kind of things. my life has changed now. family is on the bottom end of my priorities.

i dont know how to put this. anyway.. looking for tml's outing to Army Open House with me frends. :) hope its fun and all. part of it just to get away from the stupid house. sian. today was freaking boring. nothing to do at home but stare at the stupid screen all day and rot here. sian. even 343 guilty sparl lvl of Halo failed to make me excited...
heard that Bungie will complete final development of Halo 2 this month... from then on it;ll be manufacturing the discs and shipping stuff. had mind preordered from MegaMultimedia to deliver it here to my house once one is available. ;) ah well.....
thats all for today me thinks... bye

-Blaz

it is done

2004-09-04T02:21:00.000+08:00

3/9... haha long time no properly blog ler yes? mmhmm thats cos of the fucked up Dnt folio lah. make me work so hard and so long. impossible right? i mean, since when i so hardworking for a subj one. this is different, its DnT... something i actually have hope to score in. budden look at my lame project! ew.

kk the countdown already over ler. and i've finished my folio. which is good. in fact HHAHAHAHAHAHAH VERY GOOD! WEEEE.. ok insanity overide done. now its the long long one week holiday.. after that is when most ppl jam for O lvls. haha but i cant care ler. i dun want to care.. for now at least. this wk.. i think i said its gonna be the best week? turns out.. this week is the week i review all the relationships in my past, present and future. sad things happen. its natural. dont think too much about it and dont plan for it. thats all i have to say.

gl to all sec 4 graduating peeps

regards,
TF, Blazorax

meh empty

2004-09-01T20:10:00.001+08:00

lol this post is to just get rid off the last post off my site. its killing my bandwith. i'll post the real post later now doing dnt ^^

heres something you may like

2004-08-31T20:49:00.000+08:00

i have a few things to tell ya.. but priorities...

to da ger :
after alot of fustration i finally got your dnt artefact pictures on the web.. tell me if you need a printed version i'll print it out ... you can get digital versions here, here, here, here, here, here,and here. note: i recommend you right-click and 'download as' instead of clicking. the links are references to pictures so there shouldnt be a prob if you insist on clicking. WARNING : those pictures are LARGE.

alright.. today was... a little interesting at best. teacher's day celebration. a new twist this year? instead of in the hall everyone went to quad instead. had a few boring ... really boring ... perfomances.. also a last one that ended as a disaster for SC... most of the upper secs just refused to stand up and dance. thats cos we werent lame enough to do it. bozos.

alrighty thats all for today.. oh yea before i forget:

Quote of the Day (from: Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
After a great battle with the mayor/demon in their graduation ceremony, sitting on a bench staring at the ruined high school
Oz: "Guys take moment to think about this.... we survived"
Buffy: "yea it was a helluva fight."
Oz: "No... high school"
;)

-Blaz

its coming yes...

2004-08-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

finally.. a good day .. after a long week of emotional disaster finally this week shall prove to be the best :)
anyway heres the deal... a week ago i did a mere section of the Folio... thats 4 categories.
now? i only have 13/24 categories to go. thats little less then half done. its good progress thats what i call it.
from 5% done to 49% done in a week ya know yay!
and.. sorted out my feelings.. my goals.. i think i know what to do.. but if...nvm <:(

anyway.. i will have tml's half day, and wednesday full day (CHARMED) to finish up my DnT.. and Thursday to Bind it and clean everything up before Friday's Due date. (note: some of you may have noticed the countdown went up by a few hours.. actually its just me setting the time to 3pm on Friday :)

hope this week will turn out better and that most of my problems will be solved
rock on Bungie your doing great with Halo2 (they're close to done. they put a full stop to production in early october to start manufacturing the CDs...)

Quote of the Day:
"You wanna know my philosphy? Its "Sieze the Moment". You know.. you may be living happily today.. but tomorrow you might be dead! So? why waste it? Seize the moment, do what you can with the time you have."
Buffy, Buffy the Vampire Slayer-Season 1, Welcome to the Hellmouth.

,blazorax, Halo freak, DsVolunteer Forum Admin, and SCII 1337 ^^

the day is near

2004-08-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

lol? 4 days and 10 hours. cute.
another 5 days and i have to hand in my work, with no regards to whether or not the thing is complete. i'm thinking not complete. should i give up on it? not yet. i wont give up. lately been giving up on alot of things, including trying to balance my relationships. it isnt working

after typing this i shall then proceed to di the damn folio. it isnt shaping up. maybe after a few days everything will come together like i orchestrated is (my artefact did axactly dat... do do do and then suddenly wow its done)
*sigh*

feeling terribly sad since yesterday... dunno what to do with myself =/ haiz...
just found out my sickness not gone yet.. measured my temperature and found 37.7.. normal = 36.5 for me...
my throat/voice isnt getting better... in fact i think its worse. ah well maybe this thing'll kill me somehow... how nice that'll be. a guy can wish right? i dun feel like dying yet but that would still be nice. ( i dun want to die before playing halo 2 complete... after that i can go peacefully lol)
lol

bleh

2004-08-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

guns
keyes
clinging
bees
bungie
games
programming
brothers
friends
family
rockets
pictures
marks
swords

sadness:(

i tried, i failed... again
worse: i've gone and make someone's life miserable
i shall not try again
bye

-from he whose name does not matter

so.. how is it?

2004-08-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

alright.. a few things happened today. actually, quite alot of things. my Halo 2 want level is spiked even more.. why? ilovebees.com. 's blog. i thought i'll never get interested.. BUT it seems that it is directly linked to Halo 2, and that rampancy MIGHT somehow come into play.

"Melissa, a.k.a. "The Operator," used to run communications on a ship. The ship's purpose: to spy on an enemy known as "the Covenant." oh god i'm excited :) . "

anyway, the second thing that happened was that my interest in creating a web background suddenly and inexplicably went up.. and this is what i produced: http://huididi.blogspot.com/ so sorry to yaohui and ying ying whom i stole the name and format of the website. i cant come up any other names! and ying's blog is where i got my inspiration from =] note: the only thing i changed is the background, which involved alot of tedious alignment procedures (even after so much the alignment still had problems.. see that crappy little line in the middle there? grrr)and cutting and pasting. thx to bungie.net and Zoe for the pic of Master Chief.

the final thing that happen was very good indeed. i finished three things: the Final Product Design outline, the Final Product Design, and the Crude Design. the crude design is the drawing which i will use to develop in da Development... final note: since i suddenly haf an interest in Website creation and HTML (god is it so much easier compared to C++) and CSS... i've set up a poll in aikpin's forum, asking whether i should make a webbie for them. :)

arrrgghhh this thing is turning into a compo.. i'm outta here

-Tefe -Blaz
PS: hmm bro if you haven read that email of mine pls do.

countdown...

2004-08-25T15:20:00.000+08:00

ok.. mood's better today.. but not that great seeing as .. nvm
anyway.. added that little countdown timer to remind myself how long till DnT...
hey i actually figured out how to do a few of the things.. still slot stumping me... i need to do several items now everyday if i'm gonna make it, which i'm probably not.
ilovebees.com has apparently released its info lol. alot of the telephones at the location it stated has started to ring without anyone... cute. bungie is going to quite a length to play its Halo2 out... anyway, as soon as the day of infamy passes, i will clock it to a countdown of Halo 2 ;)
i'll be waiting , Bungie! ( even if i'm the only real fan of Halo 2 in Singapore! muahahaha )

-Blaz

ps: Charmed today! excited!! ms kung-fu Piper! ;P

:'(

2004-08-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

mood: melancholy

well... heh,... second post in a day... just realised i havent do a 2 post day for a long time...
lol... so... come to announce a milestone ... last post i talked about my morale , blah blah blah lvls?
well here an update:

morale - rock bottom
happiness - fucked up
will - 9%
sanity - normal (giving up is sooo destressing)

well, this is all i can say.. i have NO more ability to do anything that has gotta do with studies. heh..
how am i supposed to continue? how???????????????????????????????????????????????????
tml is EL prelims.. wonder what they'll come up with for paper 1.. probably sumthing dat'll slice my brain in half or sumthing. who cares.
anyway.. to someone that use to show you care: sorry i wasted your time. sorry i wasted your lectures. sorry for being such a lousy friend. sorry for everything.
to the rest of the world: hey.. sorry i exist... but then, why dont you do something so that i don't?
btw if u ever suspect? today's posts were never meant as jokes.
btw to those ppl that said my site looks nice? it isnt. i know your faking it.
to those ppl that said i was smart. sorry heh i'm not.
to those ppl that had hope in me. sorry to put you off, you can invest in another company now.

-Blaz *hopeless*

fuck

2004-08-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

oh great.. GREAT... this happens...what? this week's my retribution week? DAMN!
right when my physical and mental stability is at its lowest point. well it figures.
not gonna post my problem here.. cos well.. nobody will care anyway .. so why post it?
haha ironic isnt it? i create a blog, and dunt post anything of use here. oh well.

this is what I can tell you:

morale - 15%
happiness - 10%
will - 25%
sanity - almost gone
suicide lvl - 89% (well at least something close to it, not enuf balls to really die)

fuck D&T fuck Chinese

-Blaz

haiz...

2004-08-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

hmm is this the first post to have 'haiz...' as the title? dunno.. this is the 777th time i 'haiz...' liao...
first problem, major one: D&T!!! ahhh shit... how long more to the dead line? dunno.. dead line? 4th sept! (or smth like dat)
i'm sooooooooooooo dead. help? not that anyone CAN help this is my work.
so far only 20% done? heck i havent even drawn a single thing right now. ( what am i doing here? i should be drawing)
second problem: CHINESE. i wanna study for it, and then Ace the bloody subj, but... its low priority and its well... unimportant... to me at least. theres simply no time.
third problem: i'm sick. and i suspect its something serious, cos i dun fall sick juz like that(noone really knows lol, cept a few... you know who you are.. watch out for those flaming ninjas i sent after you ;) )

after this folio thing i'm gonna start on a project heehee... thx jean for the inspiration. its gonna be a 'short' project... but it'll take a relatively long time

alright.. going back to my DnT.. i took time off to do this thing =} and now i'm going back ciaoz

fuck

2004-08-16T01:26:00.000+08:00

hah... when the chinese results first came out.. i was like... er.. ok...then got happy for like awhile that i actually passed. then it finally filled this small skull of mine. C6. yea Pass.. so? whats so great about a C6? its close to fail. i probably just passed by one or two marks.i studied nothing but Chinese for a whole week just to pass by one or two marks? maybe i'll rather fail. my friends dont even know i studied. i actually told someone i didnt. ahhh this is infuriating. i've tried to pass this INFERNAL subject for at least twice a year for 4 FREAKING years. yet... everytime i fucking FAIL. yea this year was better. hmm i like this year .. wasnt so bad after all was it? i passed.............. but do i look like i care? C6... its so close to fail that theres no freaking difference.
why am i even bothering to talk about chinese?

i dunt used to care. but then, things, events, people in my life started making me care. And when i care? what happens then? i fucked up thats what i did. now what? i have to retake this shit. i even have to go through prelims. yea so what if i payed. its just too bad i wont have the joy of seeing the Giro form burn. i'll hand in a clean page thats what i'll do. not a single molecule of ink. for the prelims maybe my name only . maybe i'll change my mind and not write a name. anyway, i'll flunk chinese like nobody ever did before (( like i care now, which i dunt ))

Fuck chinese, or mandarin, or mother tougue, or whatever you call that infernal subject.. i'm outta here

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2004-08-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

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-i am crazy
dUrAnDaL

its aliiiveeee

2004-08-08T10:48:00.000+08:00

yo all today i got quite a few news.
1. i killed the 4e7 forum . not willingly though... cos like the last post was a month ago so....
2. i made a brand new slick lookin forum complete with a new logo .

alright. very forumy eh? if u try and visit the 4e7 forum, within 24 hrs from now it would say that the forum doesnt exist anymore. anywayz i've made a new forum, alot easier to manage than that crappy AIMOO (thx for hosting the last one) ok heres a few new things. i'm gonna start restricting picture size. and the forum logo.... v nice in my eyes haha. u can post however long u like yea. and also... no restrictions watsoever on who comes and goes, as long as you dun make a big hoo hah. heres the forum url and link: mchief.proboards29.com
any comment pls post! its still v young so its not fully grown. since i created te 4e7 forums i've ran around to other forums to take a look and i've learnt quite a few things on managing forums. sho heres to the new forum

ok ppl who visit my blog PLEEZE pleese link the forum to ur blog plsplsplspls this is to make the forum as widespread as possible. i'm aiming for more then 50 users this time. outsiders are ALLOWED. this includes teachers. which means anyone can post. as long as someONE knows who u are. thx!

okok i'm alright...

2004-08-06T19:36:00.000+08:00

as can see from title i'm ALRIGHT u guys can stop worrying now... i wont be posting any new comics.. kind off dry up in my brain.. gimme a break. i'll be back with more digital goodness in 3-4 days =]

...

2004-08-02T22:11:00.000+08:00

hmm today... went out with the usual ... was like.. trying to hide all this feelings.. actually succeeded... for a while... heck... now everytime we are together i see the lines so clearly... after like half the day i cant take it.. the shield juz kinda evaporated.. no more strength to put that stupid mask on liaoz... xpect for the next few days i be like that
next few lines i write in 'invisible ink' *shrug* whether u figure out how to read it its ur business
everytime i look at him now i feel this thin wavering connection.. somehow.. for some reasons.. i feel the gap b/w us widening.. the ropes to the bridge.. is straining on my side.. i dunno y.. i juz cant take it.. dun take me wrong.. i'm not jealous or anything.. but... haiz.. that link... didnt it use to be strong? didnt it use to be alway use to be so busy? now its so quiet....i know y.. i understand that it wont be the same ...but...

-a sad n lonely boy

touching... happy

2004-07-31T20:52:00.000+08:00

ok.. umm today.. morning was nice.. DnT.. went there at 8.30.. den yh arrived at 9 =.= said he wanted to come at 8... to yh: "u goooood" ... haha anyway.. yh finished his project.. and mine um... 90%? left cards n to re-superglue the fallen out parts. *sigh* steeewpid crap. after that nth to do so yh came to my house to "rot" well we played the big X again.. this time i played awhile and let him play by himself LOTR: TT . dis days i find myself uninterested with any game xcept Halo n SCII. even SCII get old quickly lol.
den he went home at 5 liddat... n i went to watch Last Samurai since yh say v nice... infact it was ^^ thx kor heehee
now i juz edited my new comic to make it less wordy... my new home-made character's inside! the Sentinel haha
hmm the comic is actually one of a three part series...here's the first:

>>comic update: Laws Are Made to Be Broken Part #1

-f*** you for you cooparation ;P
dUrAnDaL / TF

sad.. then happy... then went crazy

2004-07-29T20:35:00.000+08:00

yo! haha feeling a lil crazy rite now.. had a mood swing that made me kinda depressed for the whole dae... *laugh* umm now i'm all rite ler.. using a new method i call 'custom sprites' i can make more comics faster.
made 2 today infact =] one cannot let some of u see.. sent it to some ppl liaoz ... was it farnie? :P hope it doesnt offend anyone...
the next comic i made can me seen by the rest haha as stated last post i'm gonna put the notice. i dunno whether its farnie or wat *shrug* comments will be appreciated
today was sooo boring.. maths lesson as usual cannot bring myself to listen.. remember hav epp then mood went down like siao. tried to hide but in the end da ger still detect it...oh well... i cant remember anything about the rest of the day so.. short post =P buaiz

>>new Project : MC comic strip created. **click to view archive**

-infinitely bad joker
dUrAnDaL a.k.a TF